Questions to the HIM…

Questions to the HIM…

HIM…

Sometimes I wonder who is HIM sometimes I ponder why he is HIM and mostly I question What is HIM… but HIM never answered me, rather HIM questions me back which sometimes give me answers and sometimes makes me ask another question.

Often, I got tired of my questions but HIM never got tired of me nor my questions. It’s fun at times but it is also irritating and annoying at times. HIM is very sarcastic, senseless, intelligent and quite funny. You can find your HIM too, HIM will be roaming inside your heart, mind or soul aimlessly. All you have to do is to just sit with HIM in silence. But beware don’t compare my HIM with yours… HIM’s are different… just like us.

“Every question got minimum three answers…” HIM said…

“So why poor die in misery and rich live” I asked in agony…

“Rich live till they meet misery and poor die as they have tasted it already” HIM grinned.

“that’s the first answer, give me the second and third…” I demanded…

HIM Continued “secondly poverty is a burden, to self, to society, to existence, and thirdly what do you think poor need to live for… do you want them to suffer more???”

“you are merciless.” I murmured… “Mercy lies in the context of what is needed and at when its delivered… allowing a wounded lion to die in dignity is better than allowing it to suffer in shame in front of its foes...”

“So, is that true that even God’s forsake poor?” I asked in unbelief.

“Why you bring in God for the stupidity of men?” HIM replied…

Trying to play smart I made the same as my third question.

“So what is God doing on all these suffering…???”

“He suffers with the sufferer and plays with joyful; He resides in the heart of children and dies with the agony of the poor…”

I got furious, “so God is powerless in front of the powerful is what you are trying to say...???

HIM smiled “yes He is with the poor and helpless in this world, yet in His world He is all powerful and all Being’s have to submit before HIM”

“So, your God saves only the dead?” I asked. “Yes, He saves through death as well” HIM replied.

“Do God consider the rich and the powerful, wont God get angry and punish them… the wolves that eat the flesh of the sheep, the weak, the poor and the powerless…???” Now I demanded HIM to give me three answers for this question relishing my smartness and pouring out my agony. HIM looked serious at this and it sat in a more comfortable posture.

“ok, note down… No 1. Yes, God do consider the rich and powerful but not in anger but look them in pity for what they sow is what they are going to reap, what they did is what will be done to them… in this birth or the next”

No 2. Remember that God is not only God of the weak sheep but He is also the God of the Wolves and jackals

No 3. In God’s kingdom what is sheep today can become a wolf tomorrow and what was a wolf yesterday can become a sheep today.”

I was actually more confused than before, “so what work does God do for mankind? Does He simply wait for the right time to come in order to punish or protect, is God a mere observer or what???”

HIM smiled and said “yes, you got the answer, God is a mere spectator of all, till you reach His kingdom”

“His Kingdom? You mean after death?” I enquired in disbelief

“No God’s kingdom is here in you, it’s in me, it’s everywhere, only thing is that you have to be absolutely Egoless, fearless, anger less to see it, to immerge in it. Your ignorance should banish and your innocence should emerge.” This answer made me more furious. “So, God just create Human kind and make them reproduce in millions just to satisfy His Ego?”

“No God don’t carry an Ego, He carries only love, Human kind is His expression of Love, the more the number the more the Love, the more the relationship the more the Joy…” HIM seems to be excited now.

“I can’t understand a God who is allowing all this pandemic, politics, war and famine to happen, how could you even justify in your wildest dreams that this God is all merciful and full of Love???”

HIM looked at me with concern and replied “No one can understand God, He is behind your reach, He is before and after, He is from ages to infinity… neither could you understand HIM nor His love”

“May be” I said “One day I can ask God all this” HIM smiled. “You are asking already” and it went back to its silence which I don’t want to disturb at least for few more days.

“What is anger?” I asked HIM once… HIM replied “its just an absence of your conscious, its absence of Love”

“Further” I enquired. HIM smiled and said “Anger is not presence of darkness its absence of light. Like fear, like stress its not the presence of darkness, it’s the absence of light, the love the joy and the essence of your inner being.”

“Further”

“Anything you call negative is actually is not negative it’s the outcome of the positive within you. Anything you say evil is not mere evil, it’s the goodness that’s within you”

HIM understood my confused look, and asked “what makes you angry the most?”

“the evil in the society” I said.

“So what’s evil in the society?” HIM questioned

“Inequality, Exploitation and suffering of the poor…” I replied.

Him beheld at me and asked “how many times you have done this to your family???”

I was furious this time and shouted “how many times I haven’t done this to my family??”

HIM looks so content and replied “almost every single day….” Then there was this awkward silence for a while.

HIM started again “do you honestly say that you love and care every member of your family, every single friend of yours, every neighbour, every stranger alike?” HIM seems to trap me but I have no other go I can’t cheat HIM I can’t lie HIM, I said “NO”.

HIM throwing a comforting look around me and said “you are the society and the society is you” seemed to be lost track of my first enquiry I looked at HIM.

HIM stretched its legs and said “You get angry on the things which you are not in control off, you get fear on the things that you can’t (or don’t want to ) understand, you get stress over things because of your own incompetency and stubbornness., the time you realize that you are part of the whole crime either you will repent or you will become part of the crime.” “Many are the doors to be a part of the crime and repentance has only one door and its always one way”

“what is repentance?” I asked in dismay.

“Repentance is realization and accepting the reality that you are part of all this evil around and still trying to remain sinless as much as possible. Repentance is understanding the absolute reality that you are nothing and you can’t do anything towards this evil. Repentance is not focusing on the external evil rather focussing on the internal Light, for you are the light of the world. Repentance is sharing that Light to all, in an even, controlled, equal amount of Love, care and empathy. Finally, Repentance is knowing how to change what you can change, accepting things (as they are) those that you cannot change and implying wisdom on finding the difference between the former and latter.”

“So, being angry or being in fear or being in stress is useless is what you are trying to convey?” I smirked.

“No, breeding such emotions is a shame to yourself, is a shame to God you pray and a shame to your knowledge that’s been given, the more you are in darkness the more your light loses its strength.” HIM smirked back. “being in a negative ring is not only useless it is also a sin” HIM Concluded.